JD

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 00:40:40 GMT

Hey guys...

It's been a lot of fun just I just found out I'm moving back home. My son needs me.
Thank you for all the good times and the wonderful people I've gotten to know.
I wish you all the best.

JD

Screened

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 16:25:12 GMT

I've been so out of it lately...
I wonder what's wrong with me.

Ok, I know whats wrong, but I don't really want to think about it.

Also, I miss Turk ;-; My Chocolate Bear best friend.
He and Carla sent me a letter but it didn't say much.. and I could tell Carla was writing most of it herself.

I've been... I just.
I need a girlfriend. I think that's what it's been.

Not to mention things are more strained between me and Dr. Cox than ever.

It's just been a crappy couple of weeks I guess.
Uugh.

Private to Cox

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 03:26:04 GMT

Hey Perry.

It's been one of those days.
What are you doing tonight?

A note

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:06:31 GMT

[Left in Dr. Cox's office. Busy shifts leave very little time for talking.]

Perry,
Assuming you actually take the time to read this, I'll keep it short.
About Hisoka...
If you wanna talk.
Or drink.
Come find me.

-JD

Lalala

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 03:59:57 GMT

Checking in time.

Patients, how are you? I'm scheduling chechups here in a day or so but if you need anything don't hesitate to tell me. Alternatively you can post here but I'm easier to get ahold of in person.

Right-o
JD

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 09:02:49 GMT

It was good....but hurt so bad.

Reminds me of a certain pie.....
Dear god, if he followed me I think I'd cry.

PATIENT ASSIGNMENTS

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 01:21:09 GMT

Hey, well all of you guys know me already but the attending vacancy I've been waiting for has finally come.
That means,

cacophonousbeat
butterflysmoke
switching_on
hitsuzenwoman
hollowine
sci_fi_horror
deserveditall
chameru
thisduchess
hellslimit
n0t_in_kansas
beloved_poison

I'm your new doctor!
Please comment and say hello.
As always, if you need something, feel a little sick, or just wanna talk-
my door is open.

JD

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 12:40:59 GMT

Well.... shit shit fuck.
What do I do?

Christ John... you slept with him.
just say it just say it just say it
I slept with Perry Cox. Not in the slumberparty way.
In the dirty sweaty drunken we fucked

_{I liked it.}

How can this be appropriate with this massive patient explosion?
Well... It feels like working in a really hospital again.
I don't want to sound callous.. but I'm used to people dying all the time no matter what I do to help. Yes, I'm a doctor and it's my job to help them but you can only do so much. There are no magic wishes or wands... however great that would be.

Maybe it's not so bad.... getting.... involved? Are we? Am I really thinking this?
Maybe it was just the one night
Maybe it won't happen again

What would happen if..
well. This would never happen back home. Cox has Jordan and I have...no one.. shut up!

Turk would probably stop being my friend, or become convinced I was raped or something.
Elliot would think she turned another one gay.
Carla... that's a gamble but it would probably not be too great
Tod -fucked the cox high five-
Janitor... I don't want to think about it.
And all the girls in the place would think of me as their new gay buddy, effectively gay blocking me from dating any of them forever.

Why did it hurt me so much to hear about House?
I can't help it... I just get so pissed off.
Jealous
Oh man please no.
We're just both lonely.. and sexually tense.. and know each other so it breaks the awkwardness.
Please JD. Don't make this into anything more than what it is.
A one night stand.
For once in your life get out of your head.

[EDIT] He said next time....

why am I making a bigger deal of this!? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!

AND! to top it off.. I passed out. Great.

It's always sad when you hear a patient dies... Even if you didn't know them very well it beings you a little down.
The out flux of people... I'm not quite sure what to think of it. I guess I'm just glad they're going on to where they really need to be.

That's all life is anyways.. one big journey to try and find your final resting place.

This is an amazing song btw

Sat, 17 May 2008 11:02:20 GMT

I can't believe how lucky everyone is... a mistake like this..

and no one is dead.

What a rotten first day but I'm glad no one has died.

[PRIVATE]
Speaking of rotten, what the hell is wrong with Dr. Cox?!
I understand your stressed because of this pill thing but jeeze!
What do you start talking Looney McCrazy when this happens?
Never in my life have I seen you… you refused to… ARGH!
     I wonder what he meant by ‘you should try it out’ or how merrily in-depth he was about his hypothetical sexual tendencies. I’m not sure if I should even think about it.
Was he saying something in code? Or was it just another rant to shut me up and do what he tells me to. At any rate…..

     I called him out.

Gulp
     I have a bad feeling about this. Maybe this time I can finally man up and kick his ass.
Maybe.
yeah right.
     God what is it with me?! Why am I always a looser around him? I should know by now he's never going to be the affectionate mentor. I should have figured that out when I was an intern and yet.. I still do it. Still hang around him because I know that under all the rants and belligerent remarks and name calling and everything else... He cares about me just enough to keep inventing girl's names.. and defend my skills. He said it again today. I'm a good doctor. He trusts me as a person...

If he trusts me... why doesn't he let me in? I can't imagine how much pain he's in.

I just wish I could help.
[ / PRIVATE]

Tue, 13 May 2008 16:33:15 GMT

Oh man! pizza bagels!

[ private ]
He doesn't want to admit it.. but... he totally missed me.
[ / private]

Tue, 13 May 2008 06:50:20 GMT

I heard once that people think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go.

I’ve had a lot of time to think about this and the more I do, the more I think it’s true. Not to say that I don’t miss it already. I miss Sam, Turk, Carla and Elliot…maybe even Kim, but I know that this won’t last forever.

It’s all about being adaptable. If there’s an issue out of my control, it’s up to me to do something about it. Dr. Kelso have Dr. Cox.. Perry? (it still feels weird to me) one heck of an earful for leaving but he did what he thought was right for himself. Now It’s my turn. It hurts to think back and remember everything I’ve gone through, all the people I’m leaving temporarily behind… but sometimes the memories are worth the pain.

It means you can still feel, and in my field it can be very important. I know some doctors would rather pretend they don’t or can’t.. but deep down they do. It’s a protective shield, we all have one. Something to hide the hurt behind so we don’t upset anybody else. These masks get so engrained into who we are that it can be hard to take them off.. Even if it’s for a little while. I guess this is my taking my mask off… maybe just for a breather before jumping back into the flames of Sacred Heart.

Then again, who’s to stay I won’t like it here. Maybe I’ve just been so dependant on my routine that I think I’ll crumble if it changes too drastically. Maybe it should. It’ll give me a chance to rebuild myself. I like that… This place is nice... the crisp scent of winter, the crazies and heebie jeebie giving stares as I cross the room... Makes me think of Rocky Horror...Nah, I could never pull off those glasses.

Everything is great except that the doctor’s positions were all filled…. And.. I have no choice but to intern again! ARGH WHY GOD WHY D: No friggin way. Ok JD. It’s only temporary. You have a degree. You’ll make it.
Aaaanywho
I'm JD! An intern. ~~I am actually a doctor. All positions were filled though and I can't make it as a nurse. I need all the man points I can get.~~
I'm excited to meet everyone~

OH DR. COX?!

x's and o's... but mostly o's
JD